Spring means one thing…change. Good change.

Spring is here.

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Yes Snow chaos in the UK.  So glad we invested in new snow boots and coats for the ever-evolving seasons to wet, wet and wet. Gregorian Monk chants have now been replaced with Led Zeppelin, The Doors and Pink Floyd.

Discovery is an enlightening experience.  If I learn something every week. I know I’m doing well. I’ve been working my kebabs off lately finishing my Reiki certificate homework, NVQ Merit work. Creating art, designing stuff for our Earth Tree Healing Projects. Attending a great course ‘Liberating The Talents’ for personal development (Thank you NHS) all helps with my career path and ambitions.

I’ve had the lurgy for a good few weeks now. So overwork, no rest working 12 days on the trot in the hospital. Wiped Claudsvilles vagazzle out. Luckily I have some great work colleagues that when the going gets tough. Sit quietly and let me snore on my lunch break. Plus some good daily banter and music is refreshing.

As one door closes day job wise another few open. Fate handed us a break. Then said. RIGHT its really time to crack on now with Earth Tree Healing. So you are gonna get a slap round the chops and no choice but to do it now!! One giant leap of faith required. A few tears and fears. Then determination. Then our cat shat on the bathroom mat, I tripped over and we both laughed so very much.

The forces of darkness are bullying the lightworkers, testing us. Faith, belief, positive mental attitude. Knowing, seeing the goal is in reach. Life is learning and tests. As the saying goes. It’s not what happens, its how you handle it.

I’ve been experiencing so very weird dreams lately. My messages come through them. The knowing of being watched and influenced has been dealt with. Our time, minds and privacy are ours again. Some people can lead you down the wrong path. Well the path they believe is our one. But actually. It’s the one they want. In reality, it was a diversion to learn a few painful lessons. My detour is at and end. I crossed over and am now ‘walking the walk’ slowly but surely on the right road.

I’m looking forward to gigs and recording with the Idolins.  & other music projects. Now my time is freed up.

I’m actually looking forward to mowing the lawn. I find it therapeutic. Even though it’s tiny. Planting our food and lots of lovely plants is going to be fun this year. I need to be surrounded by greenery. A paradise.

Working on a new art project with old guitars (Watch this space) Creating brings me so much joy.

I collected my new spectacles today to the enjoyment of Ange pissing herself at how I say spectacles!! “OOOH I CAN SEE”

Nice to have non contact lens days in the dust. Ange is sat next to me shouting and squeaking impersonations of me now cracking herself up. (OOH I love people reading over my shoulder)

We’ve been raising the vibrations of our home, cleansing, burning Anges incense. Laughter, love, harmony.

Backstabbing in your workplace. Who are these people? Why?

The thing about moles/melanomas?

They sometimes appear without warning. Overnight, creep up on you. Or maybe they have been there a while unnoticed?  You only tend to be alerted them after they have ‘arrived’, or you open up and really look. Someone else points them out. Or you start itching. I’ve had a dodgy mole removed from my stomach. They cut a huge deep piece of me out. Just to make sure, if it was nasty. All of it and its potentially cancerous ‘mates’ were removed. Luckily. It turned out ok. My scar smiles.

Back stabbing in the workplace is generally rife in my experience. Have you encountered the the ‘a’ typical snakes in the grass? Pretending to be your pal. While all the time tossing those knives like a fantastic circus act. Stirring. Telling half truths, blatantly lying.

Then you get the ladder climber wannabies. Who actually spend most of their working life. Not actually working. But ar#e licking, back stabbing to make themselves and their inadequacies look good. Pathetic worms. Feeding off the big cheese that is dangled. Seeking promotion or an excuse to get their revenge on society.  Moles, spies, grasser uppers. I’m sure you have met a few. Looking for any opportunity to go squealing like a piggie. Oinking on you for the slightest thing.

You get the ones that will say something half true, just to wind everyone up, and sit back and watch it escalate. Causing mass falling out. You get the ones that put words into you mouth. Whispering or blatantly telling you colleagues you have said it, thought it. When actually in truth. They did. You are their scapegoat, their punch bag. They suck people in, all nicey, nicey. Attempt to give you snippets of info (When most of the time they know nothing anyway).making you feel special and “in the know”. WOWSER!!! By The Power Of Greyskull!! I always get home and ‘flick myself off to Tricia’ over info!! NOT

So you are told. “It’s not about you”. Don’t take it personally. Wrong place at right time. You have attracted them for a reason. It’s a life lesson. You can now make choices on how you deal with them.

I find it incredibly disrespectful, having my intelligence insulted. Oh yes there are consequences to doing it to me. (not a threat btw, just fact) I read rules, procedures and will stand up for myself. My patience is tried for only so long. I have the rule of you get one chance and a warning. After that, I will escalate in the proper manner and have your ass kicked, book thrown at you if necessary.  If it’s really bad, what YOU have done to me. Then my ‘one chance’ rule is blown out the window. It’s always wise to not take me for an idiot. I may come across as a joker, soft touch at times. What lies beneath is intelligence, strong capability and very low tolerance level. Taking justice/revenge into your own hands is futile (Unless you are a character in TV series Prison Break of course)

I’m dealing with my temper, lack of patience issues. Boredom of people who can’t get to the point and make me switch off and glaze over. Slowly but surely. I do still tend to fall asleep while having lectures/meetings in public places. An instant cure for insomnia. Being a ‘sh8t magnet’ myself. One attracts either the blame from the ones in the wrong, who try to pettily turn everything into them being the victim. Control dramas and power struggles are rife in the workplace. Easily recognisable at times. Trusting ones instinct and gut feeling is vital. I’ve been told I have an ‘Air of Authority’. Sorry chums, I’ve worked in positions of authority. I’m also an unplucked chin whisker off 6 feet tall, a ‘Strong personality’ (oh how i’ve loved that label chortle!!!) that is able and does express my opinions’. I’ve also taken too much crap from people in this life, to be a doormat.

Yes I’m also human too. I make mistakes. I say sorry for them too. I sometimes speak verbal pebble dash. Say things in the wrong way and tone. My mouth does engage before my quick thinking brain chooses the diplomatic approach. I cut people off mid sentence (thanks you Mummy for that trait). So very rude. I change subjects as get bored very easily. If something isn’t sorted straight away I lose my rag. “It’s all about Claud.”  Like I said. I’m not perfect. But I’m aware and working on it. I have yet to meet the perfect individual. I’ve met the ones that disguise their true self well. I’ve also met lovely innocent souls, confused and not comfortable in this world.

I remember years a go in a previous Job/company. (horsemeat and Every Little certainly doesn’t help) While on holiday from work (I.E. NOT THERE). I was accused of slagging someone off in the staff canteen (Obviously my Hologram was at work, I must have astrally projected) On return I was taken in the office. Having no idea why? I did point out that I had not been at work so how could I have been seen doing this? The tarred with brush and blame me for everything had already painted masterpieces. Infuriated. I did find out who had accused me. Did take out a grievance against them. After much nastiness, wasted company time, upset and billy bob bull s@~t. The person eventually confessed that they hadn’t seen me. They had made it up to cover their own back!! They cried. My name was cleared and point proven.

Like I said,  I am far from the perfect individual, (yes and everyone finds Claud so interesting that they feel the need to criticise Claud , never mind that Claud is not remotely interested in dissecting their personality, life, faults etc) I am honest and upfront. Choosing to spend my time doing what I’m paid to do or finding more interesting and productive uses of my energies and mind. I’ve matured as I’ve gotten older. I was a rebel and sarcasm machine when younger. Wind ups, blow outs were my speciality.(my brick wall of defence protecting my marsh mallow fluffiness that only the closest to me see) With that, one expects a certain amount of comeback/karma, pushing me, provoking, to see if a new victor can be made.

I’ve been through the anger at the world stage. The poor me, the why me? I’ve acknowledged my bad ways and work on them all the time. Change doesn’t happen overnight. Leopards, as well as tattoo removal cannot fully change their spots! Reminisce,  memories of what once was shall always remain. Events in my 30’s started the ball rolling. Being told my ego and negative outlook is appalling certainly kick started things.

I’m being told, detox, raw food diet, no wheat (well we eat wholemeal bread now and the odd French stick) no Dairy!! No caffeine, no booze, no cigarettes.

I’m a hell of a lot healthier than I was 5 years ago. Just suffering the consequences of indulgence. Maybe a full detox will occur? Without pressure… in my own time. A fully clear head. Not waking with a hangover craving nicotine is great these days. But during a band rehearsal, studio recording session. I simply love red wind and ciggies. It’s part of my process. I’ve not yet evolved to purity. Part of me wants to, the other half shouts NOOOOO!!! A battle is occurring. Guilt.  Mineral water and apples with my guitar. Others have. Good for you. Early days!! I’ve put most of my demons to bed. Just enjoying a bit of what I fancy these days.

Maturing a little helps.

Some people have never experienced this ‘happening’. Or observe themselves.

So live their life with the sole intention to upset others, as ‘they have been mistreated in some awful way’

Even the slightest little change, can upset the apple cart so much for them. The end of the World can loom. Generally most folks have reservations about change. Sometimes things become better, sometimes worse. If you don’t try. How can you know? The worst kind of people I’ve met. Firstly are damaged secondly create a toxic environment. Thirdly tend to make up ‘Pork pies’ a lot to cover their own back. Blame everyone and everything else. As it’s never their fault! Being obnoxious and loud about its is apparently the norm for some.

The ones ‘set in their ways.’ Resistant; If you dare have an opinion. MY GOD HOW VERY DARE YOU!! You will be sent to ‘Coventry’, alienated by bullying school ground tactics by grown adults. YOU WILL BE TOLD THAT YOUR OPINIONS DON’T COUNT AS YOU ARE LOWEST OF THE LOW!

So what happens to these maggots in your workplace? Well, some go far. Non are respected. I pity them. Their self worth, integrity, ego =  “FALSE SELF”

QUOTE : writer Eckhart Tolle writes about the ego in his book A New Earth.

“The extent of the ego’s inability to recognize itself and see what it is doing is staggering and unbelievable. […] To become free of the ego is not really a big job but a very small one. All you need to do is be aware of your thoughts and emotions – as they happen. This is not really a ‘doing’ but an alert ‘seeing’. In that sense, it is true that there is nothing you can do to become free of the ego. When that shift happens, which is the shift from thinking to awareness, an intelligence far greater than the ego’s cleverness begins to operate in your life. Emotions and even thoughts become depersonalized through awareness. Their impersonal nature is recognized. There is no longer a self in them. They are just human emotions, human thoughts. Your entire personal history, which is ultimately no more than a story, a bundle of thoughts and emotions, becomes of secondary importance and no longer occupies the forefront of your consciousness. It no longer forms the basis for your sense of identity. You are the light of Presence, the awareness that is prior to and deeper than any thoughts and emotions.”

Home life? If you have to treat people so badly. What is going on with you?

Success is not behaving like and idiot. When your life flashes before you,  you calculate what good you have done in this world. What is your answer? Hint. You didn’t, like me have to go to Girl Guides to be a good person. (I hated it, refused to even go camping and I love camping! My Parents tricked me into going, Brownies first. Due to me being a shy child. My lovely ‘Virgin’ socks. When made Patrol Leader against my will, I took great pride in never getting one badge. I escaped by telling my parents I could leave at a certain age, they believed me. The joy on that last Friday night. Knowing I’d never return and not telling the Leaders. It wasn’t even worth the pick and mix sweeties either.)

I can’t stand being dictated to, told what to think. I like to work things out, be advised, shown options. Make my own mind up. Chew on the cud and come back a while later. I’ve made far too many rash decisions and suffered the consequences.

One success story. Out of the many guitars I have owned over the years. I saw my Taylor, fell in love, bought it and have no regrets!!

Did you be kind, compassionate to man, beast, plant?

Or did you drive someone to deep depression or even suicide through your actions? Drown the kittens in a bin liner in the river, because you couldn’t be bothered to get your cat sorted in the first place. Choosing, clothes, cigarettes and booze over that? Or you didn’t want that cat now the kids got bored of their Xmas present.  Did you discard your lit cigarette into the bone dry forest. Killing everything. Are you aware of the consequences of your actions?

Do you actually believe you are a supreme being? Everyone else is lower than you? FYI: supreme, enlightened beings don’t think like that.

There is a big difference between looking in the mirror each morning and thinking.. I’m beautiful on every level, my light is going to shine and be lovely to all.

Than. I’m perfect; I’ve hidden my true spitefulness from them. My ego is so huge, I’m going to be a C#’T to all of those Ba$14r)$. I’ll show them!!

Miserable life, oblivious. Oh Dear!!

“Harm no-one, but take no SH1T” that’s my motto. I’ve been a bit slow on the uptake of that advice at times. ME?  I learn my lessons that are given me in this life.(sometime it takes a few goes) I TAKE NOTE!

In the end. Who is the better soul?

Society is fully of stress, pressure, negativity. People lives are not satisfying, Not necessarily because they are skint. Because they cant think of anything good to do. Work to live, don’t live to work. Take a walk. Observe the beauty in everything. Take a breath. Be kind to everyone. Feels good doesn’t it?

I remember as a kid, standing on a tyre swing with my Brother, my dad had made. Looking up at the clouds, pointing out what shapes and things they looked like. Wonderment, blue and pink skies, sunsets. Looking at that amazing universe with endless possibilities. I always marvel and absorb the beauty. I’m humbled by its presence.

Break the cycle. You are being programmed by the TV, newspapers, internet. You are being subconsciously dictated to.  You are mostly unaware.

The thought of you not having your mobile phone, watching TV, internet for a week, . To some is worse than death! How will you survive? If the plug is pulled? What is your plan?

So work backstabbers. If you are reading this. Take note. Things will catch up with you in the end, they always do. Living a life of misery and negativity for your ‘false’ amusement and ego stroking is no life. Its also not fair on others. Maybe you are in denial. YES, you can change! If it were easy everyone would be doing it. Guess why they are not? ITS HARD!

To victims. Stand up for your rights! Ask for help. Alert the powers that be. If the powers that be are bad, go above them. The world is a corrupt place. By helping making things better. Everyone can do their little bit.  We can all feel the love all the time. Happy workers= better productivity.

You can’t please everyone all of the time. But you can certainly cut out the rot.

Blessings and good luck.